Yes I know it's 1:00 am and I am up again.
Just in a mood I suppose. Feels really sad around here. And by "here" I mean "me."
I've been working a lot lately. Working with people. Energy gets depleted, tensions can develop, and let's face it, people who come to you for help don't always want to hear what they have come to you to hear. If that makes sense.
"Be my pastor, pray with me, watch for God in my life, speak into my life, just don't say the things I don't want to hear." Really?
And the pain some people carry on a daily basis is sad beyond belief. Relational pain, rejection pain, pain of loss, pain of separation. Or the one that completely seems like there is no way out, pain as a result of mental illness. Really. Most people wouldn't be able to carry what they do each day.
It all just catches up with me some days.
And on those days I am sad.
Today was just one of those days.
Look, it's nearly 2:00 am now.
I'm off to bed again. Tomorrow I start early.