Wednesday, July 27, 2022

Being Introduced and Catching Up

This week I am on vacation and heading to Winnipeg to get Lauralea. She's been there for three weeks helping and getting to know the latest grandchildren, twin boys.

It's a two day trip so on the first night I caught up with this granddaughter. 










Then on to the boys.

 












Next to come, the rest of the granddaughters.

A fun trip.


Tuesday, July 19, 2022

How's The Weather Where You Live?

July 5th here in The Field
Yep that's the for sure. Weather sure has been unique lately across these prairies. 

Big toonie sized hail in Ponoka the other day that smashed down crops and leaves off of trees and huge dents in the cars and trucks parked all around town.  Then I think it was yesterday down in Lethbridge area where they had such a wind and they're not sure if it was a tornado yet or just a strong wind that blow over some houses. 

In Saskatchewan where it was so dry the past year, this year it's so green and the rain has come so quickly the crops and gardens are getting slightly huge. 

And in Winnipeg this summer it is so hot and humid, which is kind of normal for Winnipeg, but still. Last winter the snow kept falling and falling and falling and I think they had a record number of inches of snow through the winter. 

We hear of fire storms in Spain, heat waves in London, people dying in France because of the heat.

And here it's been probably cooler than normal. The past few days have been warm but we haven't had a good solid week of hot weather yet, and the crops could use that. There has been a lot of rain, which is good, but some heat would be good too for the crops. 

Anyway all that to say, dang the weather's been weird this year. 


Sunday, June 19, 2022

"Kansas City Here I Come"

 So I find myself in KC for a week of Board meetings. It seems like a. nice place but dang is it hot here, well at least as compared to home. And humid.

I realized yesterday that this work has allowed me to see some iconic (at least to me) American cities. These are cities you see in NFL or other sports events and now I get to experience them first hand.

Last night we had some Southern food for dinner and it was a pretty great experience. This morning for breakfast I had a fresh biscuit with gravy on it. Who know?  There are some fun tastes out there to be experienced.

But also you see the head offices of corporations you've heard of. Kind of cool. So I realized last night that I could see the Hallmark Cards head offices across the street.

I wonder if they make the movies there too.



Monday, May 23, 2022

Of Birds and Bees


The bees are buzzing here today and maybe that means plums on this tree for the first time ever.

Lauralea and I have been on the road for a bit over a week. Catching up on the closer kids, and relatives.  It took me about ten days to be ready to want to come home, and its so good to be home now.

Been trying to process life and health and my brain and where is God it it and what does He ask of me. It's a bit hard to focus and to remember. To think through things and to refocus.  May be med related as well.

I think it all kinda goes hand in hand with mail that was waiting for Lauralea when we got home. There was a letter from our bank ready to give us a completely free bank account now that she's entered her sixtieth year. (59)

Then the next letter was from the government asking her to start to consider if she would like to start receiving her old age pension at the age of 60 or to wait for more when she turns 65. 

That blew us away you know.  I mean made us a little freaky. There are deadlines now, and that's if the health continues to hold up. 

But it is good to be home, even as spring is breaking in this part of the world.

The birds and the bees are happy. But why wouldn't they be.


Tuesday, April 26, 2022

Covid

Well, it's our turn I guess.

Covid finally showed up at our house, with Lauralea a day ahead of me.

It has really kicked us in the pants. It’s been a tough 10 days. 

At first it felt like a really bad flu, but the weakness and tiredness just lingers on and on. And just when you think you’re past it and maybe you are back, it hits again and you go back to bed.

#Notfun


Our turn



Thursday, April 14, 2022

It's hard but its good too

I take a few moments to stumble into the past of this blog of mine and I realize that through the years of life there have been times of great strength and times of weakness. I often remember the times of weakness, not so much the times of strength.

I am in a weak place right now. 

I find myself struggling with hopelessness, feeling worthless, and pessimistic. I am becoming forgetful, not able to manage much on my plate, I have difficulty concentrating, remembering, and making decisions. 

The part that effects Lauralea is my feeling bothered, or annoyed, or angry. The mood changes, anger, aggressiveness and irritability. The part I hate is the loss of interest in things I once enjoyed, and this overarching sadness that never goes away.

So I am trying to own what the Doctor told me two weeks ago. Severe clinical depression.

Interesting how I fight that. But how glad am I that I am not going crazy or aging out of life. 

There are good reasons for this as the doctor told me. And we will take steps to get healthy again. But it's not a quick fix. I am doing all the right things, seeing my Doctor, and meeting with my therapist and spiritual director etc. etc.

The good doctor asked me if my faith in God had suffered through this time and I told him that to the contrary I had found that to be a source of strength and hope in my life, which he was pleased about.

I know that many others are experiencing this same thing in these times. It is difficult and all consuming. I get it. 

For me it's the action of a caring God that I see daily. It is not that He has taken this away from me, but He sure is blessing the small limited things I have to offer this community. I told Lauralea yesterday that in this time of feeling so unable and broken, there is such amazing work going on here that God is doing.

It's hard, but it's good too. 



A day of tests.

Wednesday, April 06, 2022

Growing up

More and more rare on the prairies
The town where my grandparents lived.

These days have made me reflect a good deal on my roots and how my relatives faced challenges in life. I think I am looking for ways to age well.

Certainly my experience as a child seeing them in life, were with the eyes of a child. I was blissfully unaware of more adult experiences of truth in their lives. So I don't have that, mostly for the good I believe. Still it leaves me grasping for how to age well. 


I had a realization a while back that one of the persons in the bible I could identify with deeply was the young man Timothy. He seemed about my age and experience level. He seemed to have some insecurities that I could identify with, which was also a comfort to me in ministry. And so as I moved into this life, he was my hero, my good example.

Lately I realized that I have still considered him in that same place where he's been all my life. As my example and hero as a young man pastor. 

Then something happened to me, someone identified me as a Paul in their life, and really that just sort of stunned me. It caused me to realize that I'm not that young man pastor any longer. I'm not still back there with the insecurities and fears of a young pastor failing at the work.  

Here I am still identifying as a Timothy when I should or could identify more as a Paul. It might seem like a nothing deal to you, but for me it has been so completely a shift in my thoughts. It's a better fit, as Paul has faced so many of the things I have faced. And his example and words have more and more been a good help to me.

So at least I am growing but dang how long did that take? How long was my self perception off a bit? I wonder if there are other areas I need to "Grow up" in.

But as I say, at least I'm growing up.