So many times I have been with people who are in the place Lauralea and I find ourselves in these days.
And, like I tell them, when they are ready to hear it, there are things they will learn in this difficult season of life, that they will never learn any other place or time in their lives.
Now we are in that place. And I find the educational learning curve extensive and steep.
I am learning things I never understood, about my fathers own response to his illness. I am learning what it takes to live in the land of unknowing. I am learning things I never had opportunity to really learn before.
These things are perhaps to be expected, but I didn't understand how much these things also effect relationships. The dynamics of years of being together suddenly come face to face against a harsh reality, the foundation is shaken, but you both grow through it. You make choices, new choices about your relationship that you haven't had to make, ever.
It's a bizarre new world out there people, even after 25 years of friendship, 23 of marriage.
But, it is new, and desperate, and deep, and true.
Next Thursday there will be surgery, and the result of that surgery will tell us if there will be more surgery and waiting, or whether we can get on with life.
But we will be forever changed by this living in the land of unknowing. We are learning and experiencing things that will shift and shape us for the rest of our lives, in most amazing and insightful ways.
It is difficult, but it is ok.
When you think of our bunch, pray for us won't you?