inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.
I used to think that this insomnia that some older people suffered with could be a great thing because it would allow you the chance to accomplish so much more while you were awake in the night. I am now ready to renounce that childish opinion.
Last night I started bed preparations so that I would be in bed and have no excuses by shortly after eleven pm. By eleven thirty my lights were off and I was looking for sleep. Sometime after that Lauralea put her scrabble game away and within minutes was gone off to sleep. I stubbornly stayed in my fetal position looking for sleep.
Somewhere after 12:30 am I did drift off to sleep and I know I did because right about 1:30 I awoke with a jump and reached over and set my morning alarm clock that I had forgotten to set and lay back to rejoin herself who was back from her washroom break and already fast asleep. Except that I couldn't sleep, again.
So I got up and wandered the house, finally settling on the couch and with The Andy Griffith show on the TV, I did a bunch of catch up work on our holiday pictures on Flickr. That was a bit after 2am. Then came three am, and four, and by nearly five am I felt tired enough to give sleep a chance, so off I went. Then there was good sleep, and I ended up sleeping in.
I remember when we were younger and had young kids, it was a great difficulty to even stay up till midnight. In those years I never saw what one am looked like, ever. Now I can't remember the last time I was able to fall into a good sleep before 1 or 1:30 am.
I realize it's probably a part of my sleep training and my sleep history, but it isn't fun being up all night, especially when there are appointments and meetings scheduled for the next day and you need to be in good, non-yawning shape. I need to find some other options for helping to fall asleep because it's true that you just get more and more frustrated the longer and harder you try to find it.
Maybe reading? Perhaps some meditation prayer, or maybe things will improve when Lauralea is healthy and not coughing etc. etc.
I just have to get this figured out, and soon. These kinds of nights are just crazy for a 47 year old. Still twenty some years of work before I can retire and stay up all night and sleep all day.