Monday, September 13, 2021

A bit of a catch up

I woke up this morning in a good place. A lighter mood then I have known for a long time.

The weeks have slowed down recently. It’s like one day it’s Tuesday and then it’s Thursday but it feels like two weeks have been lived in that time. I think it’s because there is so much that I face, process, and experience with each new day.

Time continues to be a funny thing to me. It's flexible yet hard and fast. You get 24 hours to spend however you like, on whatever you like. But only 24 hours in each day. And we are only promised today, tomorrow isn’t ours to have, yet.

So what will I do with today.

I can worry, I can wonder. Or, as it has been for so much of the past months, my mind can be in a state of trauma and I can be considering fight or flight all day long. All. Day. Long.

There certainly have been some days and weeks which have been mostly free from that feeling, and days when I have processed it enough to enjoy the day in some sense of not having that thing be front and center in my mind. But then something will happen to take me right back there. And time is lost, again.

I am a pastor and I have been trained in many disciplines. People like to think I have many answers to many things, but at the end of the day, there are rarely any quick fixes to the broken human being. Time, patience, and engaging with ourselves and with trusted others are good places to begin when seeking health. And I am on that way.

That’s the way I’ve been on this past seven months.

There are many new things I am learning along this way, most of which I don’t want to learn. But for the first time in a long time, I can see a glimmer of light in the darkness. We just need to press in or hang on or whatever that is as we wait for the light to reach us completely.








2 comments:

  1. Because " The life-light blazed out of the darkness, the darkness could not put it out " John 1:5 Message.
    It's there, keep pulling threads til it's so bright, you're looking at the Son 😊

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  2. "People like to think I have many answers to many things, but at the end of the day, there are rarely any quick fixes to the broken human being. Time, patience, and engaging with ourselves and with trusted others are good places to begin when seeking health."

    True dat.

    "But for the first time in a long time, I can see a glimmer of light in the darkness."

    GOOD! :-)

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