I donâ€™t know if it is a universal truth, but especially with church stuff, I always feel I have to be upbeat, pointing out the positive and offering hope and encouragement. This sometimes means that the tough stuff doesnâ€™t get digested and some feelings get denied, which obviously isnâ€™t healthy long term.
So Iâ€™m taking time this week to allow myself to feel frustration and maybe even anger. Itâ€™s a strange place to be, but it certainly doesnâ€™t feel Godless. Maybe I need to buy a punchbag.
She gives language to my frustrations too.
In trying to come to terms with my frustration and anger, I wrongly consider that it's a waste of time and energy. Or even worse, I become fearful of it owning me and it starting to define me.
I don't want to be that angry, frustrated person.
As a result I end up fighting more than resting and owning my, for lack of a better word, feelings.
I think an appropriate prayer would be,
God help us.