I think mine is about living with a best friend, partner, spouse, who goes through illness and surgery.
Then waiting after the surgery for the results to come back to tell you what shape your life will take for the next 1 to 24 months.
I think this has caused some leakage in the emotional reserves tank.
Though I have been living like the tank is OK, it seems there is a crack somewhere beneath the surface that is allowing the life to escape out of me.
I have prepared a helpful graphic for clarity sake.
I think that being a human sometimes requires us to step up and take one for the team, and so we fake the right side of the emotional resources tank and pretend that there is more in there than there really is. Since the walls of the tank are opaque, we are often able to fake it and pretend that there is much more in there than there really is. Even to ourselves.
This works fine until a friend requires some emotional support from you, and after you stop maniacally laughing you realize, oops the tank, she is empty.
This makes it difficult, if not downright embarrassing, if all the emotional support you can muster up is, "AhÂ the blighters deserved it. Let em sink!"
So, not in the vein of poor pitiful me, but rather out of genuine curiosity and interest I would ask, What do you do to refill your tank?Â Where do you go to get the tank refilled?