School Bus on a rainy Thursday morning

Thursday, May 29, 2014
Went to pick up Marc this morning for a meeting an hour away.
School bus was right behind me.

School bus



Remembering a Rose

Wednesday, May 21, 2014



Praying the day away

Saturday, May 17, 2014
Another call comes, another loss experienced.
Another grace needed, another desperate situation.
Another prayer requested.

All of a sudden it seems the world is falling down.

And so I started the day with plans to get to the three or four homes affected by news.
But as I shaped the day, I began to see that my presence would hardly be a help in these situations.

So I headed off to spend my afternoon praying.
Praying and calling, praying and texting. Praying, asking, hoping.

Mostly for healing, for comfort, for wisdom.
For strength for the needy.

You know how it goes, quiet for a long time and then suddenly things get all, busy.

People are hurting out there, even in the fields.
So I am here, praying.

Which honestly is the better thing anyway.

Big Sky


So So Shepherd

Saturday, May 10, 2014
The scriptures this week bring me to a place of awe as they are about the Good Shepherd, our good shepherd.  From Psalm 23 to John 10, the imagery I've been settling into is the imagery of Christ as shepherd.

And it's really a comfort that I don't need to be a superhero or supershepherd, because that's what He is.

But it is a struggle with calling.  Called and shaped to be a shepherd, I feel best when I am free and able to shepherd, to care, to love. But the successfulness of a shepherd, if there is such a thing, means that there are many more to shepherd. And when I try to shepherd many, I can't shepherd well for all. Then this calling becomes less than. Less than helpful, less than gracious, less than energizing.

So another week had progressed by and I have tried to help and shepherd as many as I could, as many as I had time to shepherd. I just have many and much to care for, and less and less time to do it. It sometimes feels like I'm working on a steep slope, moving things up hill.

So I am torn by the work and the opportunities to shepherd.

There are always open doors into peoples homes, which I am grateful for. But the energy to keep at it is used in different ways that are needed to keep things going here. And to be fair, those different ways can also involve different ways to shepherd too. So I am still learning.

I just think I may be a better shepherd than a rancher.



Thin Places, Thin Moments

Tuesday, May 06, 2014
I have spoken before about what some might call Thin Places. Places where the space between heaven and earth seem especially "thin." Places where it seems very easy to pray, to talk with God.

A couple of weeks ago I explored my experience at the Western Wall where I spent time praying. I've also been on a pilgrimage to Iona which too I found to be "Thin."

But there are also thin moments, thin seasons, thin times.

Times when the space between heaven and our hearts is so thin as to be transparent. Times when God by his spirit, is so present that our hearts are effected, or should I say affected.  These times are precious and all about God being present in a much closer or deeper way.

Iona Cross
A Cross on Iona

One of the first times I remember this sort of thinness was when I was eight. God was doing something big and deep in Saskatoon Saskatchewan in November of 1971 and I attended the services with my family. I remember when the services were moved to the 3rd Avenue United Church which seats around 1400, and the only seats left were in the choir loft up front and so there I sat with my Aunt. I had a commanding view of the whole room. I remember that there was something different then. That there was strange activity happening for a church service. People were clearly under some kind of power that left them reacting quite emotionally. But those meetings changed the city and the church in the city.  But what I remember of that night, which interests me, is that in my memory there was a mist in the room. I think it's just in my memory, but that's one of the impressions I have left over from that time when I was eight.

We as humans have different ways of understanding these things and we all have different sensitivities to the things of the heart.

Last Sunday here in the field, at the church I serve as a shepherd, there was something very thin going on. There were "Thin" moments here.

I began to recognize it as I came into the worship space and people were laughing and connecting, sorting out the kids and finding seats. Those things in themselves happen weekly, but there was a different sense in the room.

The service started and I began to feel this almost overwhelming sense of God being there. It's a strength and love that absolutely draws your attention, no matter what is being sung or what is being spoken. And all you start to notice is that you are not so much concerned with what you are singing, but that the singing is glorious. That you don't realize what is being spoken, except that the words are exactly what you need.

Until then I only had these "senses" of things. I didn't think it was enough to make a comment about. But then I began to notice that four or five different people were beginning to weep openly, right where they were worshiping. They would just start weeping, at different times through the service. To me, that's an indication that God is moving and touching lives.

That was enough for me to see and know that God was there and was doing what he does best, loving people. So as I got up to talk a bit, I gave people room to feel free to quietly engage with what God was doing in their hearts right then, because He was for sure there, at work.

It was interesting to me afterwards that very few people gave any mention to the difference in the morning. They didn't necessarily have the language to say "Wow, God was in his house." Their interpretation was personally experienced, like the few who mentioned how the music had deeply moved them this day. Or the four or five who approached me directly and and told me that the message I shared was made exactly for them. Or the few who shared with me what God had been speaking into their hearts and what freedom they knew as they leaned into him silently and received from his heart to theirs.

Honestly, the music was regular and the preaching was so-so.
But God was there, and he was in a mind to be heard.

Now, God is always there, to varying degrees. But the moments he shared with us on Sunday were Thin moments. The gaps between people and Him were tiny. People sorted out their business with him, heard from him, received from Him, talked with him.

Now not everyone might agree, and not everyone would witness my claim, but the things I felt in my spirit, and the things I saw with my eyes, and the ten plus people who approached me to tell me that something crazy good had happened to them Sunday morning, well I add all that up and that equals something I want more of.

Thin moments happen in life and thankfully I don't completely know how to repeat them, because if I did, I'd probably try to manage them for my own benefit. They are rather, gifts born out of a relationship with a deeply loving God. A God whose very make up is love.

My response is to be overwhelmed with gratitude and to ask for more for the people who need more of that thinness between them and God.

Oh yes there are thin places, but there are also thin moments.
May God bless you with many many thin moments in what may seem like a lifetime of thick slogging.


Today I did a wedding

Saturday, May 03, 2014
Jordan & LeahI did a wedding today. It was a great day and the couple was good to work with. They are young and going places in life and both in school still, but today was about love and commitment and Pink- the colour of their day.

With the stresses of the past week and work and life, I really found it difficult to focus and to remember the small things you need to remember when you officiate at a wedding. I was really very nervous today and that is it's own stress I suppose. I always have put a lot of pressure on myself where weddings and funerals are concerned, but I'm finding it all gets more complex, the more I age. I don't really like that.

It's an odd thing but for me nothing feels as lonely in a community, as wedding time. It's the time when the pastor is needed because he is the pastor. He's the local professional called upon for this work. He's not really a part of the community, nor is he really considered a friend of the couple. He is usually invited to the reception, so there can be a nice meal included in the day. But he really doesn't know many people there because he's really, from away.  So it is. It's just how I'm wired and there's really no way around it.
Did a wedding today. For  Jordan & Leah. It was a good day.

Usually the fun of working with the couple and getting them hitched is good enough fun. Like today. Some days you think will they make it? And other days like today, it's a pretty confident feeling in my gut that they should be just fine. Great even.

I love that pastoral work involves weddings, and I wouldn't want to miss them for anything. But they are intense and a bit of a lonely reminder that you are from away.

Tonight I had some great fun with my pretty dinner dates on either side of me. That was fun.
A thorn between two roses. Lauralea is sick so these two are my right and left table buddy's at the wedding reception.

Now I need to go and work a bit on tomorrow. I'm not feeling ready, even though I may be.

See you locals tomorrow morning in church.

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